Were You Watching?
Were you watching us today?
Did you know how much we’ve been struggling?Did you see us approach the spot?
See the boys suddenly realize where we were and stop and stare out in silence?
Did you see me lose it and cry harder than I have in so long?
Did you see Matthew carry almost a whole tree? And stop to watch the water flowing across the trail? Did you see him climb the little waterfall just like you used to do together?
Did you see Sean stoically walk ahead of us all? Quietly moving forward? Did you see how he threw rocks down the hill? It reminded me of the last video I have of you: throwing a huge rock into a pool of water to make a big splash for the kids.
Did you see us all climbing off the main trail, the way you always did on our adventures?
I want to be brave like you. I want to be fun and adventurous like you. I want to make you proud of how I’m working so hard to do right by our boys. Were you watching?
Betsy I'm so sorry it's been so hard. Your relationship with Jon was so beautiful, it's no wonder it can be so hard now. I love you and will always be by your side.
ReplyDeleteYou are brave, fun, and adventurous. You are all seen. And loved. xoxo
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